weekend Jan 19 & 20

i am feeling so tired now. body aching.
been walking for 2 days. went shopping for CNY clothings. kind of forced myself to purchase a set of clothes but not to my satisfaction.... why is it i could normally find clothes but not when i want to? or is this just psychological?

each year i become fatter at the waist, face, arms & thighs and sometimes, it is rather depressing to have to get bigger dress sizes.
but i no longer hate my body anymore. i have passed the phase and i now love my body for it is me.
recently, a local comedian died of supposedly difficulty in breathing and it is implied that it could be linked to some diet pills he was consuming.
as much as we tend to play-down our obsession with being slim & beautiful, some people do push the boundary without realising.
slimming business is buzzling here, you know, my beautician told me that some girls spend 7 thousand dollars on slimming packages at the saloon she works in. some begged for a loan from their friends.
well, i guess we all have our insecurities and a certain image that we might crave to have.

so anyway, i went for my root canal treatment. Dr. Lum said it was a challenging case. the pup was so deep, she had to give me extra anestatia (spelling) and i gestured NO! to her. she said No? No? you will rather bear with the pain?
i gestured "yes, yes".
cos 4 injections is enough. i really dont want more. so after 1.5hrs of propping open my mouth wide, i finally had the pup cleaned and washed. five more visits to complete the procedure, includes crowning and a $1600 fee. there goes a portion of my BONUS.
but it's ok, i am happy to spend. cos dental is really very very important. tell you what,, i am an "away from" person. there are generally two types of motivation. "toward" & "away from". for instance: if you spring into action and get going with the idea of a reward or a result that you want, then you are a "toward" person. eg: you see a sexy megastar and you read that she wakes up at 430am daily to jog, do yoga or whatever, and you want to be like her, you attempt to have a similar routine and you successfully get into the routine and got the results you aimed for, then you are a toward person who is motivated with a carrot dangling in front.
on the other hand, if you see an unflattering photo of yourself, and you go "oh gosh, is that really me?!" and you spring into a series of gym session, atkins diet etc, then you are an "away from" person. you want to be far away from that image. you are a "rod" person, means "do this! or else!". so anyway, i am an "away from" person. where was i? ok, once i watched a documentry about an Egyptian King who was freful of dying. (many kings were). He was obsessed with mortality and tried many means to prolong his living. it was fine and he lived a long life accorinding history. then one day, he had a terrible toothache. despite the expertise of medical people he had, they were unable to save him and he died of the tooth infection that went to other parts of his body. it must have been 6 years ago when i watched that over discovery channel and i had faithfully taken care of my dental since then.

i am a rather stubborn person, my dentist explained to me that bacteria once reached the pup will only mutiply. i said that it could perhaps just stay there and not cause any pain. but she said it is unlikely. i researched further on the net and finally relented that it is a matter of time for the bacteria to infect the rest of the tooth if it had been bad already. so, please, take care of your teeth because bacteria is not something that will simpily go away.

ok so much so for teething problems.